I have not been diagnosed professionally with any mental disorders, so I can not technically say I have any mental health issues. However, after hosting a sex blog for a little over a year, I must say I now question my mental health.
On my journey as a sex blogger, whenever I would attend events relating to positive sexuality, I realized before each event I would have complete meltdowns.
At first, I just thought it was out of nervousness because I would always show up after the meltdown. It wasn’t until I stopped showing up and let the mental breakdown run its course on my mind and body I realized I suffered from social anxiety.
You would think, “okay, you can’t be around a lot of people, you are an introvert, it’s okay, most people are,” but that was not the truth for me. I was also socially anxious to reach out to people when I would need help with my blog as well over the internet.
It wasn’t until I read a post published by fellow sex blogger, Kayla Lords a.k.a The Smutlancer, when I found out I suffered from “Imposter Syndrome.”
In an article Kayla defines Imposter Syndrome as the following:
” … it’s a pervasive belief that you’re not smart enough, good enough, talented enough, or hardworking enough for the success you’ve got or want. It’s also the thing that can hold you back from trying new things, branching out, and building the writing life you want for yourself.”
After reading the article many times, I was relieved. Finally, I was able to understand what was wrong with me in all areas of my life since it also affected me outside of blogging.
Ever since I figured out my problem, I seldom suffer from imposter syndrome by practicing the following:
- Bullet Journaling
- Talking with friends
- Staying Neutral (When I feel myself heading in a negative direction)
- Practicing Minimalism
- Anything Cannabis
These few activities have helped me emotionally in the long run and led me back to practicing self-love more frugally.
I have also gained more confidence since I began practicing self-care and self-love activities that give my mind a break from everyday stresses.
Due to this newly found confidence, imposter syndrome has rarely crept back in, and now that I know what it is that holds me back from my true self, I am prepared for its return if it is ever triggered to come back again.
If you suffer or have been a victim of Imposter Syndrome, in the comments let me know some methods you have tried to overcome it, or if you want to have a discussion feel free to connect with me.
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I pledge my commitment to blog for my mental health. I will write about mental health topics not only for myself but for others. I do this to destigmatize mental illness and to promote mental health awareness & education. I am a sex blogger for mental health. #sb4mh #bfmh #notalone #SexNotStigma